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sacred threads ~ defining ego

OK.  I’ll give it a go.

First, let’s hear from Webster.

Pronunciation: \??-(?)g? also ?e-\
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural egos
Etymology: New Latin, from Latin, I — more at i
Date: 1789

1 : the self especially as contrasted with another self or the world
2 a : egotism 2 b : self-esteem 1
3 : the one of the three divisions of the psyche in psychoanalytic theory that serves as the organized conscious mediator between the person and reality especially by functioning both in the perception of and adaptation to reality — compare id, superego

ego·less adjective

My turn.

I think the ego is that part of you and me that feels afraid, like somehow we are different and alone.

And it’s that feeling many of us get when we think we something prove or we have to prove something (are those two different things?)

Ego, sweet ego.

It’s all the ways we find to feel separate, like we aren’t the same as everyone else.

It’s that part of us that budgets our capacity to Love, to love what is unfolding before us and within us in each unfolding moment.

It’s moment that you and I fold and scootch away from acknowledging to ourselves or someone else some small, or medium-sized or some large perceived failure.  For such failure becomes a less than in our eyes, separating us from others and our own true brilliance.

It’s all the wondering, “what would they think if they really knew?”  Or more simply, “what do they think of me?

Dear, sweet ego.

It’s when we sit as judge and jury, condemning ourselves and others for various misdemeanors.

It’s that part of us that finds elaborately unique and creative ways of stepping out of the stream of pure Love a thousand or more times each and everyday.

It’s the giving in to the pull to withhold an experience or expression of the truth, pure love, understanding, joy.

It’s all that clinging and holding on to this or that hurt, perception, belief, want, idea, anger or any of the other myriad ways we hold on.  That. That’s ego.

Your turn.

Here’s a little secret, we are NOT our egos.

Oh.  And, how about a little less ego and a little more love this holiday?

listen well

A bunnies ears or a heart?

A bunny's ears or a heart?

Listen to yourself & others with the ears of your heart.

listening through the ego’s ears

I can always tell the difference when someone is listening to me through their ego and when they are listening to me through their heart.  However, I’m not always so adept at discerning when I’m listening through the ears of my ego and when I’m listening through the ears of my heart.

Nonetheless, I’m practicing…a work in process.  Sometimes, people say how hard personal development is, for it seems to never end.  My response?  “What else are you going to do with your life?”  So these days, I’m attending to listening.

Along with a colleague, Michael Carter, I’ve been working with the leadership team in a local school to increase their collaborative leadership skills.  This team has committed to giving of their time and energy to devote to this program, “AWAKEN! Collaborative Leadership”  for the 2009 -2010 school year.  Ultimately, the time and attention of these committed teachers trickles down and touches hundreds of lives!  Yayyyyy Teachers!

Anyway, we’ve been exploring the leadership principles that make up the AWAKEN Program.  One of those principles is wrapped around a willingness to engage in authentic communication…so, here we are, back to listening.

Clearly deep and real listening, the kind of listening that most of us yearn for in our relationships, transcends the ego and comes straight through the heart.  This kind of listening is free of shoulds and demands.  This kind of listening waits patiently and asks questions that aim at helping to better fully understand what’s being said.

One participant in the AWAKEN! Program shared that she’s noticing that she has often makes up her mind about someone and what they are saying AND finds a solution before they’ve even finished talking.  She committed to the group that she will be practicing listening…deep authentic listening.

Her willingness to share herself so authentically with the group and their response to her inspired me and deepened my own understanding of listening.  Even though I spend a good deal of my day listening, I began to pay more attention to the quality of my listening.

Am I listening through the ears of my ego or the ears of my heart?

Are you?  How do you tell the difference?