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sacred threads ~ gazing

Note to Reader:  Sacred Threads is a spiritual memoir/essay of sorts, if you like, go to archives and begin reading from the earliest post.

On this cold, wintry day, I’m reminded of a very different day.   After a long weekend of tiring work, a friend of mine and I took a day of rest on the beach.  After a long walk, we lay side by side gazing at the sky.  My body felt still and my mind quiet as I lay on the beach with the sun penetrating my skin and warming me to the center of my bones.

I remember breathing  deeply and taking in the great expanse above us.  After some time, I asked her if she could see thousands of tiny dots of light.  They seemed to dance before the eyes.  She saw them too.

Together, we gazed at the sky in wonder.  I felt myself as made of the same particles of light that danced before me.  I experienced a dissolving of the illusion that my friend and I were somehow different than the sand, the ocean, and the sky.  I was filled with a sense of quiet wonder and complete love, a kind of love that seemed to pour itself over me like warm honey.

This kind of gazing is in fact a centering technique drawn from an ancient Hindu text, The Vijnana Bhairava.

Many texts of ancient India have been translated in the last hundred years or so from Sanskrit to English, providing yet more doorways through which we can enter the Garden.  The Vijnana Bhairava is a collection of dharanas, centering techniques.

These techniques not only center a seeker, but open her to experiencing the wonder of the Divine Presence.  The English Translation of this text has a captivating title, “The Yoga of Delight, Wonder, and Astonishment.”

One of my favorite centering techniques from this text is the practice of gazing, without blinking as much as possible, at the sky.  “If one makes himself thoroughly immobile beholds the pure (cloudless) sky, at that very moment, O goddess, he will acquire the nature of Bhairava (Supreme Consciousness).” (The Yoga of Delight, Wonder and Astonishment, p. 78).

As each object of Nature carries the energy of God, the Presence of Divine Consciousness, it follows that each object of Nature can then carry the wisdom of the Divine.  However, to experience that recognition we must stop, but for a moment, to consider Nature to be a manifestation of God.

Even the path of the sun in the sky, lends itself to revealing the mysterious Presence of God in its very predictability.  Further contemplating the sun, I have experienced its generosity in the sensation of warmth on my skin, or in the taste of fruit in remembrance of the sun’s rays.

The ways in which we can contemplate Nature and find solace in it is endless.  In fact, images of Nature, simply gazing at Nature, can naturally return us to a state of peace.  Such images are abundant, infinite and easily accessible. Walking outside and gazing up at the sky, or simply sitting where you are and remembering the vastness of the sky can lure you to the experience of knowing you are in the Presence.

The Native American reverence for Nature is well known and continues to gain respect as many look to deepen their understanding and challenge previously held beliefs and assumptions.

Consider the wisdom in this statement from the Mohawk Nation, “We are shown that our life exists with the tree life, that our well being depends on the well-being of the vegetable life, that we are close relatives of the four-legged beings.  In our ways, spiritual consciousness is the highest form of politics . . . We believe that all living things are spiritual beings.  Spirits can be expressed as energy forms manifested in matter.  A blade of grass is an energy form manifested in matter – grass matter.  The spirit of the grass is that unseen force which produces the species of grass, and it is manifest to us in the form of real grass.”(15)

Any aspect of Nature, from a single acorn, to the changing seasons can teach us more of the Truth of who we are.  What if we were to listen, and let God be God in any and all manifestations before us?  Might then we glimpse the beauty and peace of the Eternal in the Present moment?

P.S.  If you are interested in learning and experience moments of Divinity in Nature, consider joining my Women’s Retreat in Provence, June 2010.  Only 3 spots left!

just a little present for you

What if we all decorated ourselves this year with relaxation and peace?

Here’s a little (less than 10 minute) relaxation recording I made for you, hope it helps you in your holiday decorating . . .

Relaxation Meditation

metta meditation

Just a quick note to let y’all know that I just uploaded a free metta meditation recording.  I hope you like it and you are inspired to meditate.  Post a comment and let me know what you think or better yet, tell us about your meditation practice.

I know that the recording is not studio quality.  So, that’s covered.  We dont’ have to go there.

You can find the recording under my brand new page “free stuff.”

Enjoy.

sacred threads ~ meeting grace

3 Euro Tulips ~ Hannah Patterson

3 Euro Tulips ~ Hannah Patterson

First, let me begin with a little side note.  I’m switching pronouns.  I’ve realized that what I am sharing is my experience of my spiritual path. So, there you go.  Me, rather than you, our, we, one, etc.

It is clear to me that when I look into what the various religious teachings and lovers of God have taught throughout the ages, we are all expressions of the heart, the Great Spirit, Allah, God.  The play of our lives is the play of God.

In divine ignorance, I identify with the experiences of my personality, the mutterings of my mind, and my oh so present ego, rather than with the Witness of these experiences.  More and more I am coming to recognize this ignorance, this false identification as also divine, as part of play of the Great Spirit.  I am in the play, watching the play and I am the forgetfulness that there’s a play going on.

I want to establish myself in remembrance.  To do that, I believe in the power of cultivating a steady state, a state of peace, joy and love, a state of well-being.  Because, I think that’s where I’ll meet the Truth.  Indeed, in that state is where I have met that Truth.

If I’m not in a state of joy, peace, love or some variation, I think it’s totally, 100% my responsibility to engage a little self-effort and restore my state to well-being.  Because, that’s where I meet God, Allah, Shiva, The Great Mystery.

My self-effort is in the thoughts, words and deeds that support me in rising up to meet the Grace of God.  For me, this means surfing in the confluence of spiritual practices and change techniques from the field of psychotherapy.  It means using every tool at my disposal to dis-identify from the experiences of my ego and identify with the essence of who I am, the Truth Playing in the Field of Consciousness, God.

Still with me?

Both common and more esoteric teachings of saints and sages across tradition teach that God is within, as near as the next breath, as near as our own heart.   And, they teach God is within reach.  I “only” have to do my part.  I only have to engage self-effort to experience the inherent Truth of their mystical encouragement, their view of Grace.

There are times that “only” feels like a thousand miles long and 14,000 lifetimes.  But, still no one else is going to confront and embrace that “only” but me.  No one can do this effort for me.  In embracing that “only” and engaging in self-effort, those are the moments that I seem to disappear in a meeting with Grace.

Mechtild of Magdeburg wrote with simplistic beauty on the nature of Grace.  As a young girl of twelve in the early thirteenth century, she had a revelation of the spirit when she saw “all things in God, and God in all things.”   Much later, with her life devoted to service and spiritual practice, she wrote “How God comes to the Soul.”

“I descend on my love

As dew on a flower.”

Mmmmmm.  As a dew on a flower.  There’s a quiet peace, a sweet love in that statement.  It reinforces my experience that it is in those quiet present moments of the peaceful, loving, joyous NOW that I meet God.

Swami Muktananda, a modern mystic and meditation teacher, repeatedly suggested that being on a spiritual path is like the flight of a bird.  He wrote, “Self -effort and grace are like the two wings of a bird: the bird needs both to fly to the goal.”  Just as a bird needs both wings to fly, as a would-be Knower of God, I lean into both Grace and self-effort.

How do you meet Grace?  Click on the comments above and share your experience.

surprising waves of grief

img_40322I’m back from my world travels!  Yayyyy!  Greece was beautiful and I look forward to returning to that part of the world.  I lived in Izmir, Turkey when I was younger and loved it.  It was a magical time in my life.

Being in this part of the world again caught me by suprise.  The first couple of days I was PRICKLY!  My dear daughter only had to look at me sideways and I would start crying.  It was an odd combination of events that came together in a roaring confluence.

Making it all the more challenging was that I did not have a clue what was going on with me.  After much contemplation (yayyyy for self-reflection!), I realized I missed my mom, I missed my daughters knowing my mom and I missed my daughter even though she was now only a few feet away from me.

Here’s the deal, grief snuck up on me and gave me a good thump in my heart.  My mom passed in 1996 and Hannah, my youngest, has been living in France since January.  Compound that with being around ruins.  RUINS.  That’s what thumped my heart and opened this contorted grief storm.  We never really know what’s going to set off grief.

For me, this time, ruins.  When we lived in Turkey, my family would spend weekends finding ruins, playing in Ephesus, and generally having great adventures.  Ruins were my playground and it was magical.  Ruins reminded me of that time and of my mom.  And, I missed her.  A LOT.

Once I figured out wth was going on with me, it was much easier to just allow the tears.  I’m a big advocate of self-reflection.  Know Thyself.  What better place to engage in contemplation and self-reflection than Delphi?  Though the columns that support that ancient guidance have long ago collapsed, the wisdom lives on.

meditation

meditation-cat It’s not what you think.

meditation ~ it’s not what you think

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This morning as I sat for meditation, I noticed that my mind was oh so busy planning an upcoming meditation course I’m offering.  Amusing, yes?  So, I told my mind, “You go ahead and plan that if you like.  I’m going to meditate now.”  Then I slipped into the most delicious meditative state.

Click on “Comments” above and tell me about your experiences with meditation.

hiding in plain sight

Personal delight.  That’s what I think is hiding in plain sight, behind the “shoulds” that seem to shore of the walls behind which personal delight plays.

Should – I should, you should, they should, he should, she should.  It becomes like a kind of prison.

I hear the should in myself and notice how it squeezes out joy and delight.  I hear it from others and notice how it fertilizes disappointment at best and contempt at worst.  Either way, “should” creates walls – walls between the wellspring of personal delight within oneself and walls between you and others.

On Saturday, I had a birthday party.  So much fun.  Thanks for coming everyone.  Seriously.

Kait's Cake Pops

Kait's Cake Pops

For a bit of time, I had a little jaunt through a thorny “should” garden.  I shouldn’t have asked people to bring food.  I should have a regular birthday cake instead of bothering Kait to spend hours creating cake pops.  I should have  invited more people, less people, no people.  OMG!  I allow should to sneak into the garden of my mind and pretty soon they were growing like kudzu!

The cakepops were delicious and o so much fun!  Thank you Kait.  Everyone who came was a delight to be around and I missed those who couldn’t be there.  So, I cut back the kudzu of my shoulds and moved on.

But, funny how shoulds work.  This morning, I woke up and started thinking that I have done a terrible job promoting my upcoming meditation course.  I should have sent out notices earlier.  I should have sent a press release to the newspaper.  I should have posted flyers.  Should I keep going?

Ever alert, again, I cut back the shoulds and move on.  I am offering a meditation class.  If you can come, great.  If not, no worries.  If you want to spread the word, even better.  If not, no worries.

I also noticed a distinct difference between the felt sense of “I should” vs. “I want.”  There’s a bunch to say about this.  That’s for another post.  The short story is I want to lower the price.  I originally priced the class at $175 with a $50 discount if you bring a friend.  What I want to do is lower the price to $150 with a $50 discount for both parties if you bring a friend.  Sound fair?  I wanted it to be high enough so people would know this is going to be a class of great value, but within reach financially.

I still have a few seats left if you are interested.  Check it out here.

In the meantime, are shoulds showing up in your life?  Probably.  See what happens if you begin to challenge them and cut them back like kudzu growing in the garden of your mind.

Off to meditate.

50 trips around the sun

dog-birthdayToday is my happy birthday!  For 50 years now I have had the great good fortune to be journeying around the sun.

I’m grateful.  I’m happy.  I wish you all well.

In celebration of my birthday, I recorded a mini-metta-meditation as a gift for all you interested folks on the interwebs.

Thank you for being part of my life.  Download the file and share your experience with me.

Click here for the download.  I hope you enjoy.

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May your life be filled with great love, great peace and great joy!

OH!  One more thing, I’m going to be teaching a class on Meditation in Maryville, TN.  If you are interested, you can find out more information here.